Grieving spouse dating
It seem's as if I live in one room & I cant seem to do anything but sit in this one room for over a yr. I Thought I was a strong woman, when my first husband had cancer we had been married 23 yr.s We had 3 beatiful daughter's But Curt my second husband Helped me raise my youngest but he was so funny & so postive about everything! With all the Bills, & Trying to do everything right! He totally understood and we decided to talk more over the phone and get to know each other better to make me feel more comfortable. WHEN MY HUSBAND PASSED AWAY WE HAD 2 LIL GIRLS AGES 4 AND 7 WE WENT TO GREIVING COUNSELING FOR A YEAR.
I've been spending quite a bit of time with my new girlfriend and so look forward to our conversations but worry that perhaps there will be long term ramifications To my actions and feel embarrassed that I have found such a wonderful person so soon after my wife's death. I Have Lost 2 husband's one of Cancer 15 yr"s ago & My Second Husband Nov.6 2010, Iam 56 now & Iam Very Very Lonley, But I dont know what to do or how to begin again! I've had the chance to go on a date today but caved to fear and nerves so I canceled the date.
Now she has died and had a beautiful death (seems weird to say) she was filled with peace, love and God her last days and almost glowed like she was when she was pregnant with our sons. I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD FIND A PERSON THAT I COULD LOVE LIKE I NEVER FELT BEFORE. I FELL IN LOVE WITH HIM BEFORE WE EVEN KISSED OR HELD HANDS. WELL IM HAPPY TO SAY IT; S BEEN ALMOST 7YEARS AND WERE STILL TOGATHER.
Flash forward a month or so and now I've met this wonderful women, never intended for this to happen and I feel happier than I have been in quite some time, having these open, honest conversations, but my fear is that I haven't grieved enough.
In 1988 she earned a spot as a swimmer at the Olympic Trials. She lives in Texas with her sons Connor and Brannon.
For more information about Jennifer and her memoir, I lost my wife two months ago and am trying to sort through my feelings.